transcript.

 

​

I don't want to desire him. I don't want to constantly have him in my head when I'm at school. While he allows himself to walk past me without noticing me, I look around checking my surroundings when sat by his studios. 
 

My head is not letting me imagine being intimate with anybody else no matter how hard I try.
 

I'm aware that my actions won’t do me any good but something inside me makes it difficult to control myself. I keep reminding that I love myself but I don't respect myself.